last lines I will write for her...

I can write the saddest lines tonight.

Write for example: ‘The night is fractured
and they shiver, blue, those stars, in the distance’

The night wind turns in the sky and sings.
I can write the saddest lines tonight.
I loved her, sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like these I held her in my arms.
I kissed her greatly under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could I not have loved her huge, still eyes.

I can write the saddest lines tonight.
To think I don’t have her, to feel I have lost her.

Hear the vast night, vaster without her.
Lines fall on the soul like dew on the grass.What does it matter that I couldn’t keep her.
The night is fractured and she is not with me.

That is all. Someone sings far off. Far off,
my soul is not content to have lost her.

As though to reach her, my sight looks for her.
My heart looks for her: she is not with me

The same night whitens, in the same branches.
We, from that time, we are not the same.

I don’t love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the breeze to reach her.Another’s kisses on her, like my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body, infinite eyes.

I don’t love her, that’s certain, but perhaps I love her.
Love is brief: forgetting lasts so long.

Since, on these nights, I held her in my arms,
my soul is not content to have lost her.

Though this is the last pain she will make me suffer,
and these are the last lines I will write for her.


- Pablo Neruda

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On 4th of November, I just wanted to write something, something that defined the way I felt then; Something to take away the heaviness from my heart... I wanted to let you know that I will forever miss you, but it was too late...

Forever you will be in the deepest part of me...

I realised now that sadness is not a word, its a state of mind, which no matter how much I laugh or smile still stays on...

and yet today on the 22nd of February, 2013 I still live in constant denial of your loss, hoping that it was just a bad dream...

Love

Because of you, in gardens of blossoming flowers I ache from the

perfumes of spring.

I have forgotten your face, I no longer remember your hands;
how did your lips feel on mine?
Because of you, I love the white statues drowsing in the parks,
the white statues that have neither voice nor sight.
I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice; I have forgotten
your eyes.
Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to my vague memory of
you. I live with pain that is like a wound; if you touch me, you will
do me irreparable harm.
Your caresses enfold me, like climbing vines on melancholy walls.
I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to glimpse you in every
window.
Because of you, the heady perfumes of summer pain me; because
of you, I again seek out the signs that precipitate desires: shooting
stars, falling objects.

- Pablo Neruda

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I'm too tired to carry on,

slowly I fade away,

slowly as you disappear.

In all this loneliness I find

we have come so far away...

It was easy to hold on, easy enough,

but now seeing you walk away so coldly, hurts...

All this while, all the memories,

all that we shared, it’s all faded away...

Everything hurt, as you walked away...

But, I have no harsh words for you,

nothing to blame you for...

You loved me with all you had.

Loved me in spite of who I was...

And I think you did good walking away...

But when all is said and done

the question still haunts me,

is it really the end...

Or, is it the beginning of it?

Do you have an answer?

Maybe it would pain less if I knew...

To You and Me...

I've been in love and I've fallen out,

I've seen things and I know all about...

But I have no idea how i fell in love with you,

suddenly my best friend, things are all brand new...

I've never thought I'll say this to you,

I Love You baby, I Love you.

It's a new feeling, a new start to you and me,

it's a new pathway burnt out for us to see...

Knowing you and me, It's a long way for us to go,

Together we'll take the challenge when things are low...

Hand in hand, sweaty all through, together we'll be,

Loving each other through all that may be...

You once asked, am I sure of this, sure of what I want?

I Love you, I wanna be there with you, it's you I want.

I'm in too deep now, too much into this feeling of Love,

I cant let go anymore, I need you, I need your Love...

I promise I'll be there as your rock, if you need,

to hold you and carry you, if you need...

I'll be there with a tender touch, and a caring heart,

just for you, if you fall and need a fresh new start...

All I ask of you, and all I'll ever ask from you,

is to Love me, and let me love you...

Just a tender touch, a warm hug, just a little bit of love,

and the rest shall fall in its place, as we fell in Love...

- 9.01.2011

A bit of Love...

I am quoting you...

"Staring at the paper and pen

wondering what to say, that I haven't said then.

Is there anything left to say?

Because you know I Love you in every possible way

I Love you a bit more every day,

and I hope like this we always stay.

If I pray to god ever,

i'll ask for you today, tomorrow and forever.

So on the last day of this year,

I just found a new way to say

I Love You Dear..."

- 31.12.2010

For You...

"Maybe nothingness is to be without your presence,

without you moving, slicing the noon
like a blue flower, without you walking
later through the fog and the cobbles,
without the light you carry in your hand,
golden, which maybe others will not see,
which maybe no one knew was growing
like the red beginnings of a rose.
In short, without your presence: without your coming
suddenly, incitingly, to know my life,
gust of a rosebush, wheat of wind:
since then I am because you are,
since then you are, I am, we are,
and through love I will be, you will be, we will be."

— Pablo Neruda.

Nosto Prem...

Noshto sob... bhenge chure sesh,
sopner sesh tukro-tao aaj aar nei.
Pore ache khali koikta sriti,
kichu moner moddhye, kichu chithi'r patai...

Khoniker kichu prem aankre dhorei jibon...
Bhalobasa ki sotti-e moner ek kolpona ?
Bhableo pabo naa ei prosner uttor,
nije je kokhono bhalobasa paini...

Phire takalei dekhte pai sei oli goli gulo,
sei haath dhora duto manush er chaya,
sei aankre dhore raakhar natok, sei prem...
Sei tumi ar ami, sei tukro tukro khusi...

Somai tao jeno aatke sei muhurte.
Jeno eitukui sob amar jibon er,
jeno sudhu matro etai ami, ar jeno kichu nei...
Sudhui tomar sriti, sudhu taatei benche thaka...

Aankre dhore rakhar sei koto chesta,
chesta eke-oporer sob kichu howar...
Sotti bolte parini ami, parini tomar sob kichu hote...
Paroni tumio amar keu hote...

Amader bidai toh bolar-e chilo...
Sudhu ajo jeta bujhlam naa taa holo -
Bidayer pore ki khusi chilam...
Naa prem er natok niye khusi chilam ???

Jano ki uttor taa ???

Smoke And Ashes...

I'd heard rumors and I'd heard talk

About the trail you'd left of broken hearts

About the sea of tears too wide to cross

But a little bad press has never scared me off

So I burned a path to figure out

How to get me some of what you got

I've got a red hot heart

If the talk is true your's is the same

And we should be together

And let our passions fan love's flame

When I looked for you I almost passed you by

You were so cool and calm

I thought my friends had lied

But I thought so much reserve must make you wild inside

It was there and then that I knew

I had to get some of what you got

I've got a red hot heart

If the talk is true your's is the same

And we should be together

And let our passions fan love's flame

I thought I'd won your heart when I held you hand in mine

I thought it was true love the way we complemented each other

But my right is your wrong

And when you're right then I'm left with nothing

Your light and your heat have all been spent

Leaving only smoke and ashes

Only smoke and ashes baby

I've got a red hot heart

And your heart's as blue as the blood in your veins

I say there's fire down below

You say it's only smoke and ashes baby

I'm crying all the time

Salty stinging tears

And mourning for the past carbon-dated years

But knowing now for certain that you were always right

Because if a breeze could blow you out of my life

It's only smoke and ashes baby

Only smoke and ashes baby

I've got a red hot heart

And your heart's as blue as the blood in your veins

I say there's fire down below

You say it's only smoke and ashes baby

I was blinded by devotion

My unwavering love for you

So blinded that I thought all your lies were true

But now I know for certain since you've gone away

It was just a smoldering fire I mistook for a blaze

Only smoke and ashes baby

I've got a red hot heart

And your heart's as blue as the blood in your veins

I say there's fire down below

You say it's only smoke and ashes baby

Only smoke and ashes baby, baby...

- Tracy Chapman.

I Am Yours...

When all my hopes and dreams

Have been betrayed

I stand before you

My hands are empty

I am yours

If you are mine

When I fall and stumble

Flat on my face

When I'm shamed and humbled

In disgrace

I am yours

If you are mine

When voices call me

To question my faith

When misperception

Taints my love with hate

I am yours

If you are mine

When time decides

It won't stop for me

When the hawks and vultures

Are circling

I am yours

If you are mine...

- Tracy Chapman (Matters Of The Heart)

Three Powerful Words...

This came in as an email, I decided to post it here...

The following three-word phrases can enrich every relationship. These are just three little but very powerful words...

I'll Be There:
If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night, to take a sick child to hospital, or when your car has broken down some miles from home, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase I'll be there." Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we're truly present for other people, important things happen to them & us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility...

I Miss You:
Perhaps more marriages could be saved & strengthened if couples simply & sincerely say to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired & loved. Consider how ecstatic you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."...


I Respect You / I Trust You:
Respect and trust is another way of showing love. Its conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal. If you talk to your children as if they were adults you will strengthen the bonds & become close friends. This applies to all interpersonal relationships...


Maybe You're Right:
This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions. The flip side to "maybe you're right" is the humility of admitting maybe "I'm wrong". Let's face it. When you have a heated argument with someone, all you do is cement the other person's point of view. They, or you, will not change their stance and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you. Saying "maybe you're right" can open the door to further explore the subject, in which you may then have the opportunity to get your view across in a more rational manner...


Please Forgive Me:
Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday...


I Thank You:
Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude...

Count On Me:
A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating "you can count on me."...


Let Me Help:
The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help...

I Understand You:
People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for healing relationship. This applies to any relationship...

Go For It:
We are all unique individuals. Don't try to get your friends to conform to your ideals. Support them in pursuing their interests, no matter how weird they seem to you. Everyone has dreams, dreams that are unique to that person only. Support and encourage your friends to follow their dreams. Tell them to "go for it."...

I Love You:
Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs. The need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted.Your spouse, your children, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words "I love you."...

Thoughts For Life...

The greatest handicap: Fear

The best day: Today

The easiest thing to do: Find a fault

The most useless asset: Pride

The greatest mistake: Giving up

The biggest stumbling block: Egotism

The most disagreeable person: The complainer

The worst bankruptcy: Loss of enthusiasm

The greatest need: Common sense

The meanest feeling: Regret at another's success

The best gift: Forgiveness

The greatest moment: Every second

The greatest knowledge: Compassion

The greatest thing in the world: Love

Prem...

Ekdin- ekraat korechi premer sathe khela!

Ekraat- ekdin korechi mrityure obohela.

Ekdin- ekraat, -tarpor prem geche chole,-

Sobai cholia jae, - shakolere jete hoe bole

Taharo phuralo raat! -taratari pore gelo bela

Premero je! -ekraat ar ekdin shango hole

Ekdin- ekraat premere peyechi tabu kache! -

Akash choleche, -tar age-age prem choliache!

And So It Ends...

Storm clouds have gathered to blow away the pain,
The sorrow, the hurt washed away with the rain,
The occasional flash, the roaring thunder,
Bring back memories that take me down under.

Oh how I dream't that it would last a life time,
Now I laugh and say it was - once upon a time.

Now I cry alone under the shadow of this rainy sky,
Holding onto the memories till the day that I die,
Never before did it feel so cold on a rainy night,
Never before did it feel love is a worthless fight.

Oh how I dream't of a lifetime with you,
Now I'm sure dreams are seldom true.

I loved you true but may be it wasn't enough,
You wanted to break free, why is life this tough,
Used to think that life has given me the very best,
But I had forgotten it isn't easy to pass this test.

Oh how I dream't that I'd be with you forever,
Now I'm lost in the cloudy sky, I'm lost forever.

What i fool I must have been to fall in love with you,
Fool I was to ever have trusted you true,
Now I am counting down my lonely night and day,
Heart it dies, mind it screams, death is the only way.

Someday soon my eyes will shut, this breath will stop ?
I'll be gone so faraway, but will this pain ever stop ?

Tobu mone rekho...

Tobu mone rekho
jodi durey jai chole
jodi puraton prem dhaka pore jay nabo-prem jaley
jodi thaki kachha kachhi
dekhite na pao chhayar moto achhi na achhi....
tobu mone rekho...

Leaving tonight, not on a jet plane maybe... but still gone for a while...

Ekta Chithi...

You gave me the chance to know myself better...
And you know what?
I realized that I never really loved you.
And because of what happened, you may have just saved the both of us...
so now, I really don't mind if I cant tell you the words I couldn't say before...
because now...
there is no point in doing so...

Thanks and...

...Goodbye...

Love...

"But love, I've come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." - Nicholas Sparks.

Love its everywhere, it has no cure and for a very good reason. Life and love go hand in hand, any man who doesn't love doesn't live as well. Its more than just mere words, its a feeling that even the best of poets fail to describe, partly because Love means different things to each one of us and partly because the beautiful things in life, were never meant to be defined, or even described, they are just to be felt.


All of us believe and want the best for the one person or thing that we Love, but that in anyway doesn't mean that we always get the best. Its a place where every mistake is worth making, every hurt is worth having, and every pain - worth feeling. It makes us accept Love the way it should be. Never fear about being hurt - the greatest things in life deserve the greatest of risks.

"An act of love that fails is just as much a part of the divine life as an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by fullness, not by reception." - Harold Loukes.


Love has no reasons to it, you just fall not knowing when or how, and the feeling is so immense that once you fall its almost impossible to life without it. In Love two person share a bond deeper than many they have shared before. We should be ready to accept the other person exactly as He/She maybe, whoever or however He/She maybe. Although the path to Love maybe littered with sad experiences but its a journey worth every pain that you have endured.

"When you like someone, you like them in spite of their faults. When you love someone, you love them with their faults." - Elizabeth Cameron.


Love isn't hindered by obstacles, it goes past every obstacle, even through the barriers that we ourselves put forward, put forward to supposedly defend ourself from Love, but Love is universal it need not be between two persons its in our hearts.

"Your task is not to seek for love, But merely to seek and find All the barriers within yourself That you have built against it." - Maulana Jalalu'ddin Rumi.


Love can it really be ever defined? can it be ever scaled or put into words? speaking honestly it isn't possible, for one its indescribable, and for two its present in your feelings and not your mind to describe or even find a reason for it -

"Reason and love are sworn enemies." Pierre Corneille.

"Love: A term which has no meaning if defined." - John Ralston Saul.


I have heard of people who has stopped believing in Love just because somethings in life didn't go the way they had hoped for it. Well maybe its true that apparently it feels that Love never works. Does Love really fail ever? Does it lose its existence just because somethings in Life didn't go our way ? Is it really the only obvious answer? I don't think so - Love never dies from our heart, if we know how to Love we know how to be Love even when things don't work for us.

"Let no one who loves be called altogether unhappy; even love unreturned has its rainbow." - Eaton Stannard Barret.

" 'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." - Alfred Lord Tennyson.


Before I end this I'd just like to say - Even in the best of times, It hurts to love, it hurts to be belonging to someone, it hurts to feel needed, It hurts to be the other part of someone else, without either of your consent. But, from the moment it overtakes you.
It hurts worse to be alone...

Few months back I was at Vellore, and while going through the YWCA canteen at the CMC, Hospital I came across a poster that read somewhat like this

"To laugh is to risk appearing fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To try is to risk failure
To place idea before a crowd is to risk their loss..."

it is so fundamentally true, nothing in this life can be achieved with fear, the first step is always the hardest and the first step in life is to - Conquer fear. life dosent stop at the fear of ridicule, non-acceptance.... it only stops for us when we choose to be afraid of its challenges.

"Too many people are thinking of security instead of opportunity. They seem more afraid of life than death." - James F. Byrnes

Always believe in what ever little things that you do, believe in them because they carry everything that you are...

Smile...

"Smile at each other; smile at your wife, smile at your husband, smile at your children, smile at each other- it doesn't matter who it is- and that will help you to grow up in greater love for each other." - Mother Teresa

Smile - its an inexpensive tool to make all your troubles go away as easily they came. One must learn to smile no matter the hardship, no matter the trouble that befalls us, because a smile is all we need to find that hidden strength inside us. It takes something as simple as a genuine smile to make all our troubles disappear.

Smile, smile a pretty smile,
Smile and forget your sorrows for a while,
Smile when trouble seems to pour like rain,
Smile when with every heart beat all you feel is pain.

Smile when all your dreams break down,
Smile even when in your eyes you wear a frown,
Smile and give this world a chance to love you,
Smile and paint the world red, paint it bright and new.

Smile my sweetness and keep all your troubles away,
Smile because through all your miseries we’ll find a way,
Smile because on this planet we are just for a while,
Smile and touch everyone’s lives, touch them with a simple smile.

All it takes to beat the odds is no mumbo jumbo, no prayers but courage, confidence, self belief and Smile...

Those Who Love Us Best : Scars on the Heart...

"There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best." - Ella Wheeler Wilcox.


"Is it true ? It surely cant be, I mean how can we hurt some one we love so dearly ?" - This is what most of us will surely feel. But as is the case with truth its always so strange. In my own life, I have seen, that although I may care for a person with my entire life, but even then I end up finding new and innovative ways of hurting that person.

Its Sad, Its Strange but to put it in simple words I would say - Its the Truth...

We say things we dont mean, Do things we know would hurt them, Make mistakes we shouldn't, and in the end, its always our dearest ones, who has to be left in tears, left in pain.

Yes its true that maybe we dont take pleasure in doing what we do, you see, not many of us are Sadist's, but none the less it dosent at all make our actions justified. We must learn to look at life through their point of view as well, it shouldnt be just what we want to see, but also what they want us to see - their side of the story.

Just remember that the ones closest to you are the ones who would be there even when the world falls apart, so dont alienate them, or even hurt them. Its always easy to break a Heart, but it takes a lifetime to build it or even to appreciate its beauty...

Forgiving Myself...

“I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.” - Maya Angelou.

Is it really that important to forgive yourself ?

Well I think its absolute essential to forgive yourself, it can actually make a world of difference in our own attitude towards life and can also shape your character in a much more positive way. Yes it definitely is important to seek forgiveness from others, but if you cant forgive your own mistakes than what good will others do ? If ever you make a mistake try to seek forgiveness and mean it, also try to forgive your own mistakes because that way our inner self can grow, but if we cant forgive our ownselves than we can never grow, we can never live up to being a Human Being.

Forgive your ownself, and grow bigger in life, but try never to make a mistake so big, that no one will forgive you...

Failure - Is It The End ? or, The Beginning ?

"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." - Thomas A. Edison

"In order to succeed you must fail, so that you know what not to do the next time." - Anthony J. D' Angelo

Failure - does it really mean that we have failed ? Or, does it mean that if we work hard enough, than someday success will come to us ?

Personally I feel that failure is just another way of saying - "WAIT FOR ME, I'LL BE SUCCESSFUL ONE DAY". Its more like a learning curve where we learn from our mistakes, or better to say that we learn from our not so pleasant experiences. Some days back when I was browsing through the internet I came across these few lines somewhere I cant recall now, but here they are -

"What is the meaning of life ?
'Taking pain,' said the nail.
'Keeping cool,' said the ice.
'Driving hard,' said the hammer.
'Being up-to-date,' said the calendar.
'Being sharp,' said the knife.
'Making light around you,' said the fire.
'Sticking to it,' said the glue.
'Being bright,' said the lamp.
'Being on time,' said the clock.
'Saving a drop,' said the faucet.
And best of all, 'learning from it,' said the mistake."

Previously I used to think that life is fairytale and like a fairytale I thought it was full of happy surprises, exciting, vivid. But now I've come a long way to realise that there is more to life than just this 'Happily Ever After', we get wiser through our mistakes, and no miracle can make us happy or lead us to happiness. I've come to realise that each day we strive, we fight, and finally we move to understand that we have what it takes to beat the odds, and make life all the more meaningful.

But in our quest to success, we have to be dedicated to it, we have to be dedicated to make that difference, to make that winning move. And no matter what comes and goes we must learn never to give up, we must always continue to fight in good spirits and we must have faith in what we do, because nothing can be done without faith and optimism.

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." -Thomas A. Edison.

In the end just remember that in this little planet of ours there is no end to ones problems, there is no end to failures and miseries that follow it, but never lose your heart and never give up on your dreams because you never know what tomorrow will bring, just keep the fight on...

Do You Love Me ? Just How Much Do You Love Me ?

"Love is something even the most perfect assemblage of words can't describe. So please stop scaling or putting it into numbers. It doesn't work". Oliver Metz

HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME ? That fundamental question, the answer to which is ever so elusive. I mean can we really quantify, or even define how much we love the other person ? Personally I don't think we can do it, but yet there are people who ask this question, and they never get a so called "SATISFACTORY ANSWER", thats because no one can define or quantify the amount of Love, it can only be felt (Actions speak volumes, more than words actually).

We always set ideals, we say - "I want this to happen, I want you to do this, etc etc" and when that is not provided we actually get annoyed or even upset. But I've learnt that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I mean we must learn to appreciate the simple facts of Life and Love. We forget that there is a limit to what a Human being can actually offer, and we crave for more, and in the longer run end up ruining most of the zing offered by Love.

Love means different things to different people, it bears different meanings in the hearts of different people. For me I must say that I know what love is, I may not show it to the ones I care for, I may not Love them the way it should be, but I’m always willing to love them the way I understand it...

So don't miss out on the fun of being in Love by being blinded by the things that you want, don't say that they don't Love you True, but know this that they Love you the best way they can, and its a sure way of being happy...

Keep Loving and be happy with the simple things in life...

Look Back - Maybe That Is Where Your Dreams Are...

Some times in life, we become so restless just hoping that someone will understand, or maybe Love us, that we never look back, we never realise that there maybe someone waiting quietly and patiently and hoping that we look back, they are silently feeling the same way we are...

Did it ever happen to you, that somewhere, when you were too busy trying to make that dream date of your's love you back, someone else entered your life and expected the same from you ? Or, did it happen, that you were the one who waited for someone to look back, while he/she was just too busy to make someone else love them back ? It hurts to love someone who doesn't give you the time of day. But it hurts even more when you realize that someone you don't give the time of day loved you & gave it up because you loved someone else.



What ever your story, one thing is for sure, it hurts to wait patiently for that person, one who never seems to realise your presence, and it hurts even more, when you choose to be silent as the wind.

You might be thinking, why did I choose such a topic all on a sudden ? It's because, I faced the same dilemma some days back, I was so lost in my quest for that dream, that I had overlooked this small but crucial lesson, offered by life, here I must admit, that I was being a fool and now I feel sorry for the mistakes I made. But I was lucky in a way, mostly people stay silent about this type of delicate issues, but Life decided to give me a second chance, I was made aware of exactly what-it-was that I was overlooking, and some how I managed to rectify my ways.

Today I'm sitting happily, feeling warm in my heart, thinking that although life dose'nt give many opportunities, but if I take the ones that is on the offing, I can be a happy soul, specially if I end up making the correct choice.

So the next time, when you choose to be lost in your dreams, just take some time out, and look back, maybe, just maybe, there is someone waiting, and feeling the same way as you...

Love - Is it Freedom ? or, Posession ?

Him that I love, I wish to be free, even from me. - Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Love, its such a over whelming and pretty feeling, but did you ever gave a thought, to this fundamental question ~ Is it freedom ? or, is it posession ?

Well if you ask me, i'd say Love is freedom, I hate imposing things, and specially when it comes to the one I love, I mean the one I love should be free from all kinds of barriers.

I've seen relations turning stormy, just because of that simple glance your girl/boy friend exchanged with that beautiful stranger on the road. I feel its so childish ? I dont know how these people start such a relation based on so little trust. A relation specially a Love relation should be based on trust, and we should all respect this fact ~ that the one who loves us true, will always be there with us no matter what, and the ones that do want to break free, will go away, no matter what you do, they will go away, no matter how much you keep them from staring at others, who apparently are more beautiful than you.

Once there was a butterfly in my palm, but I let it flew. Not because I don't love it but because I wanted it to enjoy with the flowers & the bees. Keeping it in my palm won't make it the best butterfly it can be. So from a distance I'm happier watching it fly & play in the garden while the sun is still shining because when the rain comes, I'll know if it truly loves me, it will fly back to me. ~ I read this some where on the internet I dont know who wrote it, but it truly echoed exactly what i had to say.

In the end i'd say - If you Love someone give 'em the freedom to find their way and silently see whether it leads them towards or away from you, because after the moment when all is said and done, you'd be contented to know, that atleast, you did not force Love...

Life In A Shopping Mall

Summer's back again and its that time of the year when we take turns flocking different shopping plazas or malls just to be under the wraps of that sweet feeling, bone chilling, A.C, no shopping, no eating, just pure chilling out. Its really a effective way to beat the heat and spend some time in comfort when the roads outside are definite hot pans.

If you ask me I've spent my time hopping different shopping malls, I've seen people spending their time with a wide variety of people starting from their older than the oldest buddies (the ones that we refer as being our chaddi friends) to the new girl they chatted up on the internet. It sure beats the heat and it also beats the prices of costly coffee shops in the city.

These shopping malls have also become a nice place to spend that quality time with your hubby away from that sneaky little neighbour of yours, ohh how you hated that that next door aunty when she came to the roof and ruined that perfect setting - Sunset on the horizon and you in the arms of your hubby. Those days are gone for good, but the fact remains that, though these shopping malls remain a good pick among Lovers, but there is a sense of insecurity, of being caught by your all hip and happening relatives, and if that happens God save you.

Now don't think that a shopping mall without that special one is a complete "jerk's idea". These shopping malls has something to offer to each one of us. It is a good place to meet that old friend whom you didn't meet for some time now, it also offers a perfect setting to do some harmless flirting, trust me it does, I've seen people doing that pretty often although the consequences may vary, starting from a mean look to a straight and painful SLAP across your face. Strangely enough, I've also seen people doing their home work or studies that don't need much of a concentration, personally I feel they are a bit mentally unstable, I mean how can you pull off a tricky maths being inside such hustle and bustle ?

But yes one thing is for sure as the number of Shopping malls increase so will our need to spend our time there I mean its a bargain where you don't have to spend even a paisa and still get to enjoy the comforts of a nerve soothing A.C. So let us all pray that the Shopping malls grow in numbers just for providing us the pleasure of beating the heat.

Life - What is it all about ?

Life - Whats it all about ? is it about the mistakes you make ? or is it about the glorious moments that you have ?


Down below is what i feel about life

Lessons from life

Something good, something bad
Something nice, something sad

Had some faith but lost some fight
Made some mistakes but learnt something right

People say I’m too young and just too naive
But I’ve learnt a lot learnt it all from my life

I dont know about others, but surely i believe that life is a mixture of all those small, small moments that we either refer to as being happy or sad. Judging by my journey so far i must admit that although times might be hard and trouble may seem the only constant in your life its only temporary, not many things stay forever in this world of ours.